It's Going To Be Hectic Real Soon

I feel a bit confused and worry at the same time right now. My pregnancy is getting older and my due date is getting closer, about 3 months again. I've been reading a lot about contaminated formula milk in my country before especially formula milk for new born babies. It really makes me hesitated to feed my new born baby with formula milk. I plan to purely breastfeed him for at least 6 months before introducing formula milk as additional. And that's a huge plan!

Because I already have a 4 years daughter right now and she needs a different kind of attention right now. I never use a nanny service before because I can't simply imagine anyone else will ever take care of her as best as I could do. That's why I choose to resign from my previous job and become a stay at home mom. And I make it. I manage to raise my first daughter by myself until 4 years old. But by the coming of my second child everything would be different. I don't think I'll be able to breastfeed my newborn baby and at the same time nursing my 4 years old daughter all by myself. I can imagine that it would be very hectic for me. The only way out is to find more help and support.

I'm going to need a nanny eventually, no matter how hesitated I am about it. I've been trying to find a qualified and credible nanny for about 3 months now and end up with nothing. Meanwhile, my due date is getting closer. It makes me hold my breath just to imagine how hectic the situation with me in the next few years. Being a mother is never easy and it's going to be harder and harder. May God help me to take care His two amazing miracles in the future.